1 Year Post Double Mastectomy

 It’s been one full year (plus a couple days) of my double mastectomy with reconstruction!

And only 8 months since my last surgery back in August.

It’s been a crazy up and down ride, but definitely more ups right now. My scar tissues are more manageable. They don’t hurt as much/got used to them. The mastectomy scars don’t bother me at all since they’re underneath and you can’t really see them. But I did get tattoos on each side to cover up my jp drain scars because those bothered me the most. I have most my range of motion. It’s only the left side that’s really stiff and somewhat hurts if I stretch it out too far. Strength wise I’m still working on. I noticed if I pull my shirt up with my arms in a crossed position, I can’t do it. So need to work on that. For the most part I don’t think about them, probably because I lost all my nerves in chest. But when I do think about them, I feel uncomfortable and want to rip them out from my chest. I guess I’m too vain right now to go flat. I see myself doing that more in the future. Especially when I read about implant illness which I knew beforehand. I’m mostly fatigued and sometimes my brain is foggy. Hard to tell cause my body is still technically healing



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