Idk When my Surgery Is

 Found out that the appointment I have next week is not my surgery date, it’s a consultation. I already had a consultation. Which makes sense to have another one but the front desk wasn’t clear about it. They told me I had to wait at least 3 months until my next surgery, it’ll be  4 months next week. At first I cried out of frustration, now I’m frustrated and angry. This whole situation puts you in a roller coaster and sometimes I get mood swings. It’s the anticipation that gets you. It’s just annoying because I’ll go in, she’ll submit that I’m ready for surgery then I have to wait for the scheduler to contact me. And last time it took months. It’s personally frustrating for me since my life and job revolves around making appointments/scheduling. I’m a hair stylist, I have to go to work or else I don’t get paid. I don’t get paid time off, and I still have to pay rent and my bills while I’m out. I had to reschedule all my clients for 6 weeks. It’s just really stupid annoying. But I’m really grateful for my clients for being flexible, caring and so patient with me during this time. I don’t think they’ll understand how much they have helped me. I wouldn’t be able to go through this without them. It’s interesting since I’m able to share this, they’re able to share their experience. It’s hard to talk to other people about this so I guess I give them that safe space. So it’s really nice we can create that conversation together. Sounds weird but it’s mainly why I’m upset that I don’t have my surgery date yet. I hate having to waste my clients time. 

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