10 More Days till My Next Surgery

 Right now I don’t feel stress. But I think I am, just in denial? At least it’s definitely not the same amount of stress and anxiety as the first time. My cat only sits/sleeps next to me when I’m super stressed out and he’s been doing that. And he’s definitely not a cuddly cat at all. Also my hair has been shedding a whole lot more than normal. I feel fine though, but all the signs are there. Funny how things works

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