My Double Mastectomy

 Yesterday April 6, 2022 was my last day of expansion. She added an extra 30cc of saline so in total I have 200cc of saline inside my tissue expanders. I’m actually really happy with 170cc but they have to go a little bit bigger so there’s space to work with during my next surgery. Which is probably around August/September. The extra 30cc is a little too much for me. I’m already so skinny that I don’t need this to draw more attention to me. Like eyes up here peeps! But it’s part of the process so I’ll just stick with wearing baggy tops for a short while. I’m curious to see what they’ll look like when I switch them out to implants. I wonder how much of the rippling will show. I don’t have enough body fat to do fat grafting to help mask the rippling effects. Even if I do try to gain weight and do fat grafting, it probably won’t stick so there’s no point of even thinking about doing unnecessary surgery. But for sure now that they are bigger, I really don’t like my expanders. It’s so s...

 First week is obviously more brutal and more raised. You can the two holes where I had two drains on one side. The scar that runs across under my “breasts.” The staple marks. I’ve learned they staple the dressing/cloth or whatever it’s called onto your skin so it’s flat and clean during surgery.  I’m a little over 3 weeks now. I’ve been drenching my skin in aquaphor, I feel like it helps a lot with the healing process. It definitely looks better. But I’m all scarred up now which sucks especially since I have to do it all again in a few months. The top scar is from my lumpectomy, when I first got my tumor removed. Then is goes down starting from the left where the drains were, my mastectomy and the staples .

3 weeks in and I’m slowly gaining back my stamina. It’s weird when your mind is ready but your body isn’t. In the beginning of the week, I would get super winded easily. On Friday April 29 I had my 2nd expansion and this time they added 40cc of saline. So in total I have 170cc of saline. It’ll never get over how while it looks when they pump it up. I came from tiny boobies to BOOBIES lol. And this time around, it was uncomfortable. Since the tissue expanders are hard, I feel it poking through my skin even more. They’re so hard that they honestly feel like rocks. Also my nipples are really sensitive, but in the most uncomfortable way. It feels like raw skin and the slightest touch is unpleasant. The physician assistant told me that since my nerves are all wild right now, I have to look at it while touching my nipples to rewire my brain telling it that’s it’s okay. But it might take a few months for it to feel “normal” again. Overall, I’m pretty happy with the size right now. I just have...