My Double Mastectomy

 After getting my tissue expanders switched out to implants, it’s been a lot easier. Easier because I can’t feel anything anymore. I may or may not get feeling back on my chest. It took 5 years for my mom when she got her mastectomy, difference is that she didn’t get reconstruction so we have different experiences. It’s been one week coming back to the salon and I realized I do have feeling in one tiny spot on the very side. And that tiny spot actually really hurts when I over do it. My incision is healing well but not as well as the first time. I developed keloid some spots. Hopefully it’ll smooth out over time with some scarring cream. Other than that, physically there’s nothing unmanageable. Mentally is definitely a lot better than the first time. I’m handling ignorant/insensitive comments better. I know this is a never ending battle that I’ll have to learn to cope with. But sometimes the things people say really surprises me. Yesterday someone asked me why they’re so small....

 It’s been 2 1/2 weeks since my surgery. It’s surprisingly doing really well. This time it’s a whole lot easier. No pain. Had my follow up today and my surgeon said I’m doing well in recovery. So physically I’m doing great and that makes me happy. Can’t work out my upper body or heavy workouts for 6 weeks. That part is the downer. My surgeon said something interesting to me today. For 6 weeks I’m not supposed to be submerged in water. And in October, 7 weeks after my surgery I’ll be in Hawaii. So I asked if it’s okay to go in the ocean. Recently she had a client who went in the ocean after 3 months, got an infection and had to do an emergency surgery. But that client has radiation, I didn’t. So that might played a part. Overall I know that since I’m young, I’ll have more surgery in the future. I think mentally, it’ll take me longer to heal than physically. Which is okay. Im starting to get used to people making ignorant/insensitive comments to me. So I’m slowly getting mentally str...

I finally got the tissue expanders switched out to implants. I opted for the MENTOR MemoryGel XTR. Which is an extra firm silicone implant. I decided to go with silicone over saline because the saline would feel like the expanders, hard and uncomfortable. I also pick it to be extra firm because it’ll give me less ripples since I can’t do fat grafting. I’m 92lbs and it’s hard to find fat to transfer it up to my chest. And if they did find it, I’d want to keep it there plus since it’s fat, my body would probably metabolize it out anyways. There is minimal ripple effect but only on the sides when I bend over and it’s only noticeable to me. So I’m happy with my choice. It’s 100% way more comfortable than the expanders and I can comfortably lay on my side now. They feel real and I’m happy with the way they look. I was most worried about the rippling effect. Breast augmentation, you’re able to cover the implants. With breast reconstruction, it’s only your skin so it’ll hold whatever shape th...